My last days being at home...

So I've had a lot of time to be thinking and pondering about life lately...while I've been sitting on my couch, eating ice cream, watching movies, listening to music, and of course sleeping! So it just kind of hit me like a rock to the head today that this is my last summer at home and I will soon begin my life as a grown up person at college. I have been waiting for this day my whole entire life it seems like and now that it's here it's almost like I don't know what to do with myself. I feel like I'm not prepared whatsoever. But then I look at the things that I've gone through my life and I'm ever so grateful for them. I would have never of learned anything to get me to where I am now in my life. The hard things, the silly things, the fun things. The ups and downs in life are what I would never take back. If life was just one straight emotion all the time it would get so boring and we would never learn anything!

I look at the times when I was in high school, or even younger and I took so many things for granted. One thing that I wish I would have taken seriously was my family. You know how teenagers are.. right? This summer it has come to my attention how much I just took my family lightly. They have been the biggest helps in my life. They've all supported me in everything that I have ever done. It started out with dance, went to piano, then sports, always supporting me in my school work, supporting me in every decision that I ever made in my life. They are so great and I'm sad that it has taken me so long to finally realize how blessed I am. But so happy to continue my good times with my family. They are the greatest and I couldn't ask for a better one.

I'm also so grateful for the people that have ever had a part of my life. The good ones and the bad ones. I would never take anything back. I've had friends that haven't been the greatest...boyfriends that haven't been the greatest...but the best of friends and times ever. I don't know what I would do without the people in my life now. Family, friends, co-workers, church leaders. You all know who you are! :)

I love the gospel so much. My testimony has grown so much these past few months. There have been events in my life and people in my life that have helped me grow so much. Its amazing how the gospel works. The Savior Jesus Christ is always there for us and I'm so grateful for that. He is always there with loving arms. He is so patient. If He wasn't so patient there is no way that I would be at this point in my life. I have been reading The Book of Mormon more than I ever have in my life. Its so interesting what you come to find when you finally slow down and STUDY the scriptures rather than reading it like its a race. I have been able to apply so many more scriptures to my life than I have before.

So please excuse my playlist off to the side but I love music more than ever. It has helped me become calm at times in my life when no one would be able to comfort me. I love church music. It just gets you away from all the crap in the world and the words are so meaningful. I especially love just the instrumental music. I play the piano and playing church hymns or just church music is my therapy. It clears my mind, and calms my nerves. The Lord has blessed me with a musical ability and once again it has been something that I have definitely taken advantage of.

So I know this is a lot all at once. But sitting here has been a blessing. I am truly grateful for everything in my life. I love this gospel and I love the people and family in my life! :) Thank you all! :)